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Tuesday, July 8, 2008

sunshine in my window

I am still at the hospital, and doing my best to keep fluids down so that I can go home. Over the past couple of days, my liver enzymes have gone down a bit so that they are able to restart TPN this morning. They are thinking that an allergic reaction to one of the many new meds that they've tried over the past week is causing the elevation in the enzymes.

Two days ago I had low cortisol levels, so they were checking to make sure that I didn't have adrenal insuffiicency. They did a cortisol test yesterday that came back normal, so that was good news.

The docs are still wondering what to do with me. I have 3 options at this point. One is to go home on TPN, one is to have exploratory surgery (they would do it laproscopically) and try to cut out some adhesions and see what else may be going on in there. And the doctor suggested that while they were in there, they ought to put a feeding tube into my jejunum (the first part of the small intestine).

I really don't want to have a feeding tube at this point, I am still hoping to get better on my own. The surgery itself could change the body chemistry enough that I may quit vomiting. We have a surgical consult today sometime, so we will discuss it and pray about it together. Please pray that we have clarity in our decision-making.

My spirits remain good for the most part. I am trusting that God knows right where I am, and is holding me tightly in his hand. I've had lots of visitors and lots of fun conversations with folks. Thank you for all of the cards, flowers, prayers, and love that you have been sending my way.

God has been sending me these awesome verses to keep me focusing on Him in the midst of all of these frightening times... This is the one from yesterday. "Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." -Hebrews 4:16.

Love, brelin

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Brelin,
It was so nice to see your entry titled "sunshine on my window." I just wanted to share that when we visited yesterday, you brought the sunshine into your room! That must be what it means in 2 Corinthians 3:17-18 (Message); "When they turn to face God as Moses did, God removes the veil and there they are—face-to-face! They suddenly recognize that God is a living, personal presence, not a piece of chiseled stone. And when God is personally present, a living Spirit, that old, constricting legislation is recognized as obsolete. We're free of it! All of us! Nothing between us and God, our faces shining with the brightness of his face. And so we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become like him."

I will say "amen" to that, and yes, you are becoming more beautiful!

Bless you my friend :)

Anonymous said...

I forgot to tell you...the other night I was praying for you and God told me, "I am going to carry her through." It felt almost audible it was so clear in my spirit! I am glad the God is holding you in his hands!
Also this last sunday the pastor spoke on giving our burdens to Jesus. I thought of you the whole time. And then he said that when we pray we often ask for end results...like "God do this..." but sometimes we need to instead ask Jesus to walk through the process with us...like in grieving for the death of his brother- God didn't take away the grief but instead Jesus walked through the grief beside him. It made me think of you and I always pray for your healing-and always will. But I also need to pray that Jesus will and IS walking with you through this thing-this whole long process. Anyway, I love you!